How can it be this hard to decide
I've given you everything that i hold inside
Every fear, every thought, every desire i keep
But some of your action have made me weep
We started out friends like you wanted to be
But now its confusing, are you wanting me?
If not then why does it hurt so much to see
You with another girl, or two, or three
Why do I feel this way when your around
And when you ignore me i feel I've hit the ground
There are so many things i want to say
But I'm not sure how to put them in exactly the right way
I've thought it over for so long and now i realize why
I didn't want you to leave, I didn't want to cry
So i kept it all inside, hidden away from you
You'd ask me what was wrong, although i think you knew
I've looked around forever searching for what i couldn't find
When in fact all along are heart were intertwined
And of all emotions that i never wanted to feel
It was jealousy that let me know that this was truly real
But i fear this is a one way street, and you've turned along the way
I've seen that look in your eyes before, your heart has wondered astray
There's nothing i can say to you, its not my place to speak my mind
Though sometimes i wish i could turn back the hands of time
I wonder if it would hurt less to have never let you in
But thanks to you I'm still living, i wonder where i would have been
I guess i took a chance with you, i can't tame a wild soul
So i guess I'll just give in now, I've lost all control
I no longer control my mind, or at least that is what I'm sold
I can't control my heart either, for that is what you hold
But now it feels like your crushing it, with every day that goes by
And though i sit and wonder i guess I'll never know exactly why
Maybe i choose to ignore it, let the moment drift away
There's so much i long to show you, so much i want to say
I guess I'm just scared of how you'll react, cause I'm not sure what you'll do
I'm afraid of saying something wrong and upsetting you
Someday i will tell you when the drama fades away
And i hope that in your heart and mind is where I'll always stay
Cause i need you more than ever and you know this much is true
Though i may not be able to say the words...I'm in love with you |
