since we were young
you been a good friend of mine
until we grow up
with such wonderful memories.
growing up with you
is like a blessing through god plans
before is like brother and sister
until one night.
walking on the road,
to the endless evening of night
i saw you with the another girl
and i felt so upset.
i reach at the house then go to my room
lie on my bed with pillow under my head
re-freash the scene a while ago
then i did not notice my eyes was wet by tears.
ignore that tears
and wept it used my right hand.
from that moment i never forget you in my mind
kind of weird before.
every time we sit together in near of a tree
my heart was non stop beating
for me it is unussual
Coz it's never happen before
i became so uneasy when i got near with him
when he asking me i can't find answer
and i can't look straight on his eyes
the way he touch me it's like an electric waves
entering into my body.
a few more weeks i still on wonder
why such feeling i can't understand
then i few tear drops fell
and i saw you walking to your house
there something in my heart telling me that i love him
it's kind of weird cos his my childhood friend
and for him i am just his best friend
and when he telling me about that girl
how i wish to collapse
then one afternoon i ask you about her
then you told me she is your girl
how rude for me how i wish i did not ask
cos it hurts me more.
i hate remembering your smile
does cute eyes cos i know it's not for me
i hate to hear your voice
cos i always wanting you than ever
the way i think of you
it shame but its true
the way i care for you
is the way i am loving you
although childhood friend
but i can't understand how did i fall to you?
your sweetness and careens
would be the same as before?
i hate the way act
especially when i am all alone
those tears and memory is rising me to pain
screaming your name.
these must be crazy love
hopping that if i am going to sleep
tomorrow i will forget all about you
all about my feeling's to you
but even i pretend that i don't love you
always hurt me the way you being sweet with her
my heart is little be dying
but still is was a secret and no one knows it.
when can i able to propose these love to you?
or it will might be forever secret?
i am crazy love with you
