Always and forever,
Friends we were supposed to be.
More than anything in the world,
Was what she meant to me.
I listened to her problems,
I watched her heart bleed.
I helped her always,
In her times of need.
I told her all my secrets,
And all my trust I gave.
She vowed not to tell,
But she sent my trust to the grave.
I pretended to forgive her,
To banish all the hate.
We carried on normally,
But I couldn't call her mate.
I couldn't tell her anything,
Which killed my heart even more.
What is friendship without trust?
That god dam question made my head sore.
I wanted us to be normal again,
Like it was before:
When we were happy,
Instead of this bitter war.
Soon she had a boyfriend,
Who was a smoker of weed.
Everyone knew that he cheated on her,
But still his lies she breathed.
I tried to get it through to her,
But she chose her boyfriend over me.
She explained how much she hated me,
And how close we would never be.
I had always helped her,
Through all of those years.
And now she shoves it back in my face,
Killing me with her words like spears.
She thinks my life is perfect,
She thinks my life is great.
But she never listened to MY problems,
And my yearn to be elate.
Why can't she understand that I want to tell her my problems,
But I need back her trust.
I'm not pushing her away,
So stop saying those words of disgust.
If she is my friend,
She would gain back my trust.
So that she can help me,
See through the painful dust.
I long to trust her once more,
I long to tell her my pain.
I long to be loved by her,
But it will never happen again.
