It’s just an ordinary feeling before…a love of friend or schoolmate. But then sooner I’ve observe tat it’s getting serious. The more we get closer the more I’m falling in love. But I don’t want that to be happening, it’s just another heartbreak to suffer because he is committed to someone I know greater than me.
Since then, I’m starting t o avoid him so that it would not be painful, but destiny games me. It so happens that he needs me & I also badly need someone to support me in my personal problems. He had a problem with his girl & he choose me to advice him… hardness came over me, that I choose the advises that suited & good for him.
That night, still I’m thinking, what should I do? Should I tell him to stop or to go. My feelings keep on fighting my eagerness to show my hidden feelings. Instead I decided to help him to solve his problems by saying, “you should approach her & talk to her seriously. You must do your part as her boyfriend… understand her as long as you can.” No one knows what I’m suffering that night… it’s a blend of enormous loneliest & heartaches! I have to stand out with my decision to let go of him. I told God to help him bring back his true love although I mean it’s really painful. I should not use his weakness that time just to show that it would be better if he will love me.
I more likely to be alone than to be with him… knowing that he cannot forget his past, he will just am lonelier with me. That’s love, giving freedom & sacrificing… for the love to value in lifetime. Putting you self in the right place.
