Well I am not even sure where to begin I started working a new job and three months later I met one of my coworkers needless to say we had an an instant connection. At that point he was going thru a really bad breakup and I was and am unhappily married to my highschool sweetheart. Well here we are still having this relatioship if that's what you want to call it. He has pretty much gotten over the bad breakup and I am still unhappily married. Now we have gotten more in tune with each other and it seems like we don't go a day without speaking to each other. The thing is I have fallen deeply in love with him and have slowly tried to leave my husband after 11 yrs together the thing is it's not working and I am absolutley terrifed that he's going to stop waiting around for me. Both my parents have already met him and absolutley love him, as well as he does them. We have had this thing going for nearly 7 months and still have not been intimate besides kissing and holding hands, still and all we have this deep connection it's unbelievable. He has been previously divorced as well, and it's like we have both come to a point in our life where we both want the same things out of life that we did not and have not been able to accomplish in our past and present relationships. I have three small children and he has one which he has full custody of. So there's a lot to take into consideration. It's hard to explain but because I have been with my husband since the tenth grade I have never really loved anyone as a woman (if that makes any sense). The fact that he is so family oriented makes just want to marry him tomorrow. Anyhow he has reassured me that he will wait no matter how long it takes he let me know that he's not going anywhere and I can only dream of the day when we can be together without having to hide or make up excuses. I want to wake up next to him every morning and make him dinner when he comes home. I want to be his everything. I want to be his rock so that when he's having a bad day he can look forward to coming home to me. I wait with much antcipation to one day being able to spend the rest of forever with him!
