You can't help who you love, and I don't think you are meant to forget. I met him 12 years ago, when I was 14. He became my closest friend. We shared so many nights talking, laughing, and watching the stars. I love him with such intensity that I thought my whole heart would explode. We were so young and stupid, and everything was so innocent. He was honest with me, and told me that he could not make a commitment to me, because he knew that we were not meant to be together. I didn't care, I wanted apart of him to carry with me. I remember him promising that he would never physically hurt me, and he never did. But, even now - 9 years after it is all said and done I am still hurting. I moved on and started a family, but a piece of my heart still remains with him. We have kept in touch over the years. He still knows me better than anyone else, still knows what I'm feeling, and what I'm thinking. I know he has regrets, and I spend alot of time that I shouldn't living in the past with him. I love my husband, but I have never let go of the love I felt so long ago. What scares me the most is that I know deep down that he could turn my whole world upside-down all over again...and he is still my biggest weakness.
